headache dreams

. . . are the dreams that test

you wake up and your head feels like its been water logging. your body is stiff and slow to cooperate. there's an eeriness to this wakefulness. and, you know it is the lingering dark tone of your dream. but, you can't remember its craziness

headache dreams

. . . are not the subconscious stuff dream translation guides are made of. you could formulate logical correlations and symbolisms from the wacky pillow filler details you manage to pluck from the fuzziness. you could concentrate and think the whole course of confusing r.e.m. events into your wakeful state. you could give weight to the blanked out images that rendered your body near petrified. only, its best not. the lingering eeriness tells you all you need to know

headache dreams

. . . are you, subconsciously, taking all the stress and pressures, and dumping. they are the reflexive, defense-mechanized attempt to purge your system. you don't need this. you don't want this. your body hides within itself and welds into the sheet prints to avoid this. your subconscious throws the stress and pressure and confusion and disappointment and 'i fucking wish you woulds' in an open fist slam hoping the fall is breaks of un-mendable pieces. you, awake, are curious

that's far more than you should be

that curiosity will have you ponder and rationalize and puzzle work the very things every other part of you knows needed to be shredded. every other part of you got rid of it. and, here you are - trying to get it back